I will be like Him, in the end

'Be still and know that I am God.' 

Psalm 46:10

A simple verse that requires us to stop, stop whatever we are doing and be still, and know that God is God. The great I AM is, He is and He wants to be known, known by you and by me. The busier i am the more i need to know that He is, the more i need to know that i have one God and one Saviour.

I often get discouraged when i realise that i am not who i thought i would be. From i was little i wanted to serve God with everything i had, i wanted to tell everyone, i wanted everyone to know His love and my love.  I always have dreams and plans in my head, some are simple, some are crazy. Some are for strangers, for past friends, and others for my closest. But i can be shy, i can be angry, i can be too busy, i can spend too long perfecting things. I turned 20 earlier this year. 20 and i thought i was experiencing a mid life crisis. To most people, or to older people, your just twenty. To me, i am now 2/3rds of the way to 30, and what have i actually accomplished? I have dreamt about doing mission teams, being a leader in youth group from i was 7 and yes i have been part of both, but i also dreamt about having more time for people, more bold conversations about my faith, about Jesus, am i having more, or less? I still long to be who God wants me to be, to love Him, to follow Him, not just in part but completely. I always will, because He is so good, and He loves me completely, even before when i was in sin, and even now when i sin, sin against everything He is.

 I love that God is the Alpha and the Omega, that He knows me now, what i will do in the future, the 'finished' me, the perfected me. This week i was reading the following verses;

God's children now, and what we will be has not yet appeared; but we know that when he appears we shall be like him, because we shall see him as he is. 

1 john 3:2

For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known. 1 Corinthians 13:12

I cannot wait until the day i see Him, and i will be like Him. There is no discouragement in that. But for now what do we do? We continue to be still and know that God is God, to give Him the place in our lives He desires and deserves. And we look to His Word, and His Son, Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith.  

Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.

(Hebrews 12:1-2)